Introduction

Hello, my name is Elizabeth Allison Cross Tollett and none of you know me. Oh, you know of me, or you know what you think you know about me. But you don’t really know me. I look in the mirror at times and don’t even know myself, so don’t feel bad about that. I have looked in the mirror countless other times and haven’t wanted to know me. Not because I have some deep, dark secret. Not because I’m a horrible person. But because I’ve been such a pathetic example of a Christian life.

I became a Jesus-believer, born-again, Christian follower around the age of 6. I don’t remember a whole lot about it, but I have never doubted that it was absolutely sincere. What I haven’t done since then is live it. And for that I’m ashamedly regretful.

Revelation 3 talks of the lukewarm church of Laodicea. God talks of spitting their lukewarm yuckiness from his mouth. As I like my cocoa scathing hot or my water ice cold, I get this. Believe and act like it, or don’t believe and at least not be hypocritical about it. There is no value in riding the fence.

Our nation is in trouble. Our world is tilting out of control. We try to fix the anger, the sadness, the despair—with all sorts of things. We need our President…or a new President. We need to go to war…or we need to boycott the wars. We all need drugs…or maybe we need to ban all of the drugs. We need to be accepting of others to the point of not having any rights ourselves. Acceptance of our jobs, our income, our friends, our contacts, our relationships, our orientation—can’t we all just love one another and live in peace? But none of that is the answer. We will never have personal peace and we will never see reform in this world—until this nation returns to God-centered lives. And it starts with those of us who claim to be God followers.

My blog is not about harassing anyone to follow God. It is not about converting, preaching, or condemning. It is about one regular person, a stay-at-home mom with four children, who had everything outwardly going for her but was simply going through the motions of life. Until one day when she finally did what she felt God was calling her to do, and since then has been experiencing the rush of John 10:10b …I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

Is your life full of good things or junk? Do you have peace? Or, like me, do you look into the mirror and try to reconcile what you see there with what you feel and know to be true on the inside?

God took me to Africa to open up my eyes and heart. It would be my desire for everyone to feel what I’ve felt. Come and go on this journey with me and see what God might want to say to you.